Is it sad that when he called I was really happy to hear his voice, And that when he said I Love You I was all gooey melty?
Yess. It’s totally sad. Lol. U_u I guess I’m still in the Stupid-Rhett era. I fall for this guys’ charm too easily, despite everything in me telling me I shoudnt.
That awesome moment when Born This Way comes on the radio at a family barbeque <3
Just when Scarlett truly confesses & realizes her love for Rhett, Rhett finally gives up on Scarlett & says “Frankly, I don’t give a damn,”.
That’s exactly what’s going to happen with me. This guy constantly shows me he doesn’t appreciate me, & openly takes me for granted. But I know once I move out, he’s going to realize how bad he fucked up. Don’t-know-what-you-got-til-it’s-gone moment. & I was/am stupid in love just like Rhett. I showered my love onto him & put up with so much shit to be with the one I love even though it destroyed me inside, knowing it was a one sided love. I forgave him for unforgivable things, things I never imagined myself forgiving a lover for. I cried silently in bed countless times beside him, miserable.
But I’m going to give up as soon as possible. It is obvious to me now that our love is never going to be equal ever again. I was stupid to keep hope in that for as long as I did; just like Rhett. Too deep in love to face the facts. His smile would always decieve me into believing in us again. But I’m going to walk out into the fog, forever gone, let down, & heartbroken just like Rhett.
I’ll be gone with the wind. & by then my “Scarlett” will realize he loves me - but it will be far too late.
Love songs make me think of you.
But not in the way the used to do
I remember when it was just pure Love
and reflect on how we broke us.
I remember the feeling
when I wanted nothing more
than to give you all of me
because you were my everything.
Love songs make me think of you
but not in the way they used to do
those love songs make me reminisce
“there was a time when I felt like this”.
I’m done wasting my tears on you.
I’m done with faking my smile everyday.
I’m done with all of it.
You don’t care, so why should I?
It’s my turn, to be the heart breaker.
It’s my turn to act like everything’s a-okay, and truly mean it.
It’s my turn to make you feel like the one who’s lost something.
And it’s your turn to hurt.
I’ve tried to stop having hope in people a long time ago. Thanks for bringing me up and then bringing me right back down. I feel so stupid.